... to know what to say. At times, there simply is not much to say, and other times there is plenty but I don't always know where to start. I guess a lot has been happening. My business partnership officially started up, but we're still waiting for our business card so we can order the testing supplies we need. We even have our first client, who needs a full evaluation (yay!) and doesn't mind waiting for us to get set up fully. My business partner and I went last Friday and networked (isn't there a better word than "networked"?) with private schools in the area so they would know our name is out there and hopefully refer people to us. Kinda funny how things happen, because on Sunday, I got a call from a fellow SLP who is looking for people who want extra work. She runs a company similar to the one I contract with. I told her that I didn't need extra work and mentioned that I've started a general partnership. She was eager to know the details, so I began explaining what we'll be doing - mostly focusing on psycho-educational evaluations and recommendations. Her response was totally opposite of some of the responses I've gotten from other SLP's - mainly that she'd be happy to refer clients our way (obviously she is overloaded). One other SLP I told my plans to warned me that I would be sorry if I "went up against her". Oh please! Because there aren't enough people out there with communication delays looking for services?!? Either way, it was a breath of fresh air to actually have some support from a colleague, which is really how it should be.
H and I put Jellybean's crib together. We had both dreaded doing it because we figured it would be a pain in the ass. Luckily, the crib took about 45 minutes from unpacking to finish it, which is the easiest thing H and I have ever assembled. Hooray for directions that make sense and quality craftsmanship - what a concept!
Speaking of things related to Jellybean, I'm getting to the point of getting nervous. Not all the time, but enough. There are things I don't remember about my first pregnancy, but I do remember the pain. I remember yelling things that I never thought I would say, like barking at the doctor "don't push him back in!!!" and "get IT out!!!". At least we're getting prepared as far as getting things set up. Next week, I'll attend a breastfeeding class, and our childbirth preparedness classes will start. I think I need more resources for what happens after the kiddo is born. Some friends of ours came over for dinner last night and mentioned the "No Cry Sleep Solution", which made me think of some other friends of ours
who are struggling with their own issues. It makes me wonder what kinds of things we'll be dealing with....
On a personal front, I've been dealing with some resentment issues with someone in my life who likes to keep a scoresheet. For those unfamiliar with the concept, scorekeeping in any relationship or friendship is when one or both sides try to keep things even. I must confess, scorekeeping is ingrained in me, and has been a very hard habit to let go of, even though I know it doesn't do any good and mostly ends up doing harm. Recently, I've been on the receiving end of it, and I've had a hard time disengaging from it. I had no idea, until now, how much resentment this "keeping even" produces. The problem is that I have this compelling urge to inform this person of all the wrongs that have been done to me in the past and how that means that the scorecard will never be even in my mind, no matter what happens from here on out. This takes my focus off of just sucking it up and doing the right thing. In the end, especially with H's support, I'm choosing to do the right thing, but it's so hard for me not to say "yeah, but....". I think only time will help with this issue. The one thing I'm learning is that I'm on the receiving end for a reason, if only to give me a small taste of my own medicine.
This post is brought to you by a fellow blogger, whose link never works when I try to use it, but his simple "hello" was a reminder that I need to get off my ass and keep blogging. Hope everyone is having a good start of the week!